Lil Wayne has spoken for the first time about attempting suicide as a child. In a recent conversation with Emmanual Acho, the rapper shared his experiences of being depressed “at a very young age,” describing the intrusive thoughts that led to him making the attempt with his mother’s gun when he was 12.
“I start thinking I had to get myself mad, and noticed that I didn’t have to, that’s what scared me,” he said. “How I knew I had mental health problems was I pulled the trigger.”
“I didn’t feel it, aimed for my heart, and didn’t feel a thing though, so I wasn’t going through any pain, it was the shock,” he continued. “I woke up to boom, boom, boom, to the police knocking, and that’s what woke me up… It took too long, meaning dying, death, took too long, I was still just laying there. I said shit, I must be here for a reason.”
If you are thinking about harming yourself or attempting suicide, tell someone who can help right away
- Call your doctor’s office.
- Call 911 for emergency services.
- Go to the nearest hospital emergency room.
- Call the toll-free, 24-hour hotline of the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (1-800-273-8255) to be connected to a trained counselor at a suicide crisis center nearest you.
Ask a family member or friend to help you make these calls or take you to the hospital.
If You Have a Family Member or Friend in a Crisis
If you have a family member or friend who is suicidal, do not leave him or her alone. Try to get the person to seek help immediately from an emergency room, physician, or mental health professional. Take seriously any comments about suicide or wishing to die. Even if you do not believe your family member or friend will actually attempt suicide, the person is clearly in distress and can benefit from your help in receiving mental health treatment.